When I wrote the song, Evelyn was a fictitious name, a fictitious story… or so I thought.
Before I ever even thought about blogging, I used to write songs. And Evelyn is by far the most memorable of all of them because of the supernatural events that took place in its wake.
First of all, I make it no secret that I believe there is a God that loves us, that Jesus Christ died on a cross to pay for our sins, and that he wants a relationship with the people he’s knit together in their mothers’ wombs,’ as it says in the Psalms.
That said, the topic of abortion was heavy on my heart at the time I wrote Evelyn. Now, before I lose half of you — the pro-choice crowd — I think it’s important that you know I understand your point of view. You’re not monsters — you believe what you believe for very good reasons.
I only hope that we can all agree that abortion is, at least, a sad outcome to the problem of unwanted pregnancy. I believe we are capable of finding common ground, no matter the topic, as long as we hear each other out.
That said, I hope you can hear me out, knowing that I do not judge anyone for their point of view.
So here goes…
I used to hand out literature at abortion clinics with my family and some friends. Our goal was to educate people on information that likely wasn’t being given inside the abortion clinic (info on fetal development, nervous system development, etc.). And we also wanted to do everything we could to make sure that, if money was the issue, we could help out.
We worked with a non-profit that would give money and aid to these mothers who felt otherwise helpless. As a result? There are now two beautiful children in my family’s life, who we regularly see, whose mother’s chose to keep their children instead of terminating their pregnancies.
So I have seen first hand how, sometimes, a woman just needs supports and community. Let’s face it, pregnancy must be scary! I also understand that, as a man, I can’t comprehend everything a woman goes through when considering abortion.
I only wish more people knew that God really provides. He takes care of those in need.
I recently read a news story about a woman who changed her mind and decided to keep her babies — twins. In fact, she had already taken the first abortion pill when she altered course. This is what she had to say:
“If I had known what I know now and I had seen how the Lord has provided for these babies, I would have never even walked into that [abortion] clinic.”
Evelyn is a song about how God is there in that situation, ready and willing, in fact, yearning, to help. It was my best effort to hear God loud and clear on his heart on abortion, and these are the lyrics of the chorus that came out of it:
“Hold on Evelyn. I am here and I’m not gonna ever stop loving you. Hold on, never quit. You are so beautiful; in your mother’s womb you were knit, just like the one who lives in you.”
I believe that is God’s heart on abortion.
He wants to help those in that situation. He wants those who are in the situation of an unplanned or unwanted pregnancy to know that he will provide and that he knit both mother and child together in the womb — and that both are fearfully and wonderfully made.
But the following is also true: the part that says “I’m not gonna ever stop loving you” means that God’s love is unconditional. If you, or someone you know, has had an abortion, Jesus is still longing to embrace you with open arms. His love for you is unconditional. All you have to do is be open to accepting his powerful and unshakable love for you.
In the song, Evelyn is the woman considering abortion. But in my mind, when I wrote it (or rather stepped aside as God wrote it) I knew that Evelyn was the name of the child as well. This was confirmed by events that took place after it was written.
Around four days after the song was put down on paper, my mom informed me that one of the women on the Crisis Pregnancy Center prayer list for that month was a woman named Evelyn. Apparently, if there was any mystery to how the story ended, that was put to rest.
Evelyn kept her child.
Around 6 years later, I randomly decided to research the meaning of Evelyn. It turns out it is a French name meaning “a child who is wished for.”
I think that so well encompasses God’s heart in the situation — Evelyn, the child, and the mother — are both wished for. God loves the child and wants her to live, and he also loves the mother — no matter what she decides.
In closing, I believe that battle lines are often formed far too quickly when it comes to the topic of abortion. God’s heart is to love the mother, unconditionally. His love for her doesn’t change, no matter what. And if someone reading this has had an abortion, you need to know that God is waiting with his arms wide open to embrace you and to love and heal you.
There is a future for you, and God wants to walk into that future with you. God wants you. He loves you dearly. He will provide for you no matter your circumstance.
That is God’s heart for you. John 3:16 in The Bible says “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.”
He died on the cross for you. Embrace him and run to him, no matter your situation. He will provide for your every need.
You are loved!
That is the story of Evelyn.